Words Do No Justice

Family day was hell for me. I went in to work, took in my first session, fully expecting my coworker to show up on time to take the next session. Well, She didn't show up, at all. I was alone all day, with appointments booked every half hour, which is perfectly manageable for two people. Each session takes about 45 mins, so we would simply alternate. I wish things were that simple that day. I went into overdrive, shot the bare minimum of 6 poses, took 10 minutes a shoot, and sat people down to select the photos they wanted while I took in the next session. As my previous session selected their photos, I'd shoot the next one, sit them down, help the first session, help the second, then take in the next session. I have never been so exhausted after work in my life, but at least I earned my time and a half. The photos I took that day, despite being rushed, were extremely good. I've had 4 calls already from people from that day requesting me again. I'm happy for that. Brittny showed up to my surprise, I haven't seen her since around Christmas time! We chatted for a while, then decided we're going out. We picked up Amanda, went to Winston's, and got kicked out within 20 minutes. That has to be a record because it's impossible to get kicked out of there. After much driving around we ended up at the acreage watching movies. Of course I was the only one awake by the end of it all. This weekend turned out to be a very good one, and very much needed. I needed the distraction.

I have my first private client as well. I have spent the entire week researching copyright laws, appropriate pricing, everything I can think of that would relate to this commission (That's what you call it, when you have a private client you have a "commission"). The guy offered to hire me in the future as well if I impress him. I'm so nervous, more so than I would be for a date because this is my career we're talking about here! Needless to say, I'm also extremely excited.

I have to stop spending money needlessly.

I've bought into a new skincare line, H2O+. It's been almost a week, and I love these products. They make my skin feel so nice, and my acne is clearing up slowly. I don't think I'll need more clindoxyl gel from the doctor for a while. We'll see how this goes, but so far the money spent has been worth it and now I must incorporate these things into my budget. I can't keep spending money on eating out.

I think I'm okay being just me again. I don't feel so attached to him anymore, although I do miss him a lot. I still love him, and it kills me, but I'm seeing through it. I just hope I didn't fuck everything up with spiteful things I've said. I don't know if I should talk to him about it or leave it in the past and keep moving.

I've had Pink's newest album on repeat for two weeks now, it's so good. She has one song "Sober" that perfectly details why I don't like drinking anymore. Everyone has a vice; a drink, a smoke, a relationship, a crackpipe that they're holding on to and I just want to feel good without it. I want to feel good being just me.

I forgot how delicious kiwi's were until my mother came home with a few and I devoured them.

It sounds like Nicole is having a really good time in Mexico and I'm jealous of her. I find it funny how she burned herself though haha, it's about damn time :P
God I miss her.