You - S Club 7
Thursday, June 25, 2009 by Genre
It's my birthday today! I am now 19 and I don't feel any older really. Everyone says that I guess; the only thing I can say is wow, I've matured since my last birthday!
I have tried posting a blog for three days now and for some reason I keep getting a 404 error when I try to post. Tonight had better be different, it's my birthday for god's sake!
Father's Day was a good day. I went to Moxie's with the family, and stayed and met with Nicole. It was so refreshing seeing her. *Side note: She looked really good that day* We talked and talked in Moxie's and then we left. Nicole decided it was one of those nights where we get completely self-destructive so she pulled onto a side road with some nice trees, we pulled the seats of her Escape back, and we bitched and cried and tried to figure our problems out. I love when we do that, as strange as it may be. Picking away at every emotion that we've tucked under the surface is therapeutic, we're psych's for each other. I can't open up to anyone like I do with Nicole, I am so glad I can trust her with everything.
She brought me back to a memory with a certain individual and I felt something I didn't want to feel for a long time. I didn't think that I would be reminded of how happy I was with that person. Then I was reminded of how crippled I was. How can a person get on having these feelings, all of them just compiling. We may forget them, but they're still there.
I went on a date last night. I met Adam at work, and he took me to the fanciest goddamn restaurant ever. We had $20 pasta, and a bottle of wine, which was fantastic, but just how much thought he put into the whole evening was absolutely stellar. It's so nice being on the receiving end of that for once! He called everywhere to see what would be open late so we could go for desert, but everything was closed. I politely refused to have desert at the restaurant because he'd already spent enough money on me. We walked to the legislative grounds and talked and kissed and oh god it was wonderful. He's so romantic and sweet and thoughtful, he's smart, cute, and he is so genuine. I can't wait to see where this goes, but I'm going slow. I'm trying not to make the same mistakes I did before but I'm still trying to take risks. He's such a sweetheart though, he's not going to make this easy. He's coming to my birthday as well, which I'm stoked for. I can finally dance with him again between drinks with my friends!
Even though Adam will be attending my birthday, I'm going to try and remember that my friends will be there as well and I can't simply ignore them because of a love interest. I don't want to be that person.
Work is turning into a gongshow. Larissa quit on short notice, which isn't that big of a deal, we can get more hours covering what were her shifts. I don't know why exactly she quit, nor is it my business, but I hope everything is alright with her. As much as I admire her professionally, she's also a friend. "S", as she will be referred to, is a whole other story. She's been asking ridiculous questions and conniving, trying to manipulate us and the company to suit her needs. I know her background and how she's a backstabber and a liar, but two can play at her game. As it stands, I'm sort of an inside man, S sees me as a person to confide in, but my loyalties lie with my superiors. We're cutting her hours, writing her up, and trying as hard as we can to catch her whenever she slips up so we have a legitimate reason to fire her. Unfortunately with no Manager and the assistant leaving on vacation for two weeks, if we need to fire her soon, I might have to be the one to do it. Ugh.
There was more I wanted to write, but now I don't remember what there was, so I'll leave it at this.
I'll try to blog more often, I'm sure I left a lot out.
I have tried posting a blog for three days now and for some reason I keep getting a 404 error when I try to post. Tonight had better be different, it's my birthday for god's sake!
Father's Day was a good day. I went to Moxie's with the family, and stayed and met with Nicole. It was so refreshing seeing her. *Side note: She looked really good that day* We talked and talked in Moxie's and then we left. Nicole decided it was one of those nights where we get completely self-destructive so she pulled onto a side road with some nice trees, we pulled the seats of her Escape back, and we bitched and cried and tried to figure our problems out. I love when we do that, as strange as it may be. Picking away at every emotion that we've tucked under the surface is therapeutic, we're psych's for each other. I can't open up to anyone like I do with Nicole, I am so glad I can trust her with everything.
She brought me back to a memory with a certain individual and I felt something I didn't want to feel for a long time. I didn't think that I would be reminded of how happy I was with that person. Then I was reminded of how crippled I was. How can a person get on having these feelings, all of them just compiling. We may forget them, but they're still there.
I went on a date last night. I met Adam at work, and he took me to the fanciest goddamn restaurant ever. We had $20 pasta, and a bottle of wine, which was fantastic, but just how much thought he put into the whole evening was absolutely stellar. It's so nice being on the receiving end of that for once! He called everywhere to see what would be open late so we could go for desert, but everything was closed. I politely refused to have desert at the restaurant because he'd already spent enough money on me. We walked to the legislative grounds and talked and kissed and oh god it was wonderful. He's so romantic and sweet and thoughtful, he's smart, cute, and he is so genuine. I can't wait to see where this goes, but I'm going slow. I'm trying not to make the same mistakes I did before but I'm still trying to take risks. He's such a sweetheart though, he's not going to make this easy. He's coming to my birthday as well, which I'm stoked for. I can finally dance with him again between drinks with my friends!
Even though Adam will be attending my birthday, I'm going to try and remember that my friends will be there as well and I can't simply ignore them because of a love interest. I don't want to be that person.
Work is turning into a gongshow. Larissa quit on short notice, which isn't that big of a deal, we can get more hours covering what were her shifts. I don't know why exactly she quit, nor is it my business, but I hope everything is alright with her. As much as I admire her professionally, she's also a friend. "S", as she will be referred to, is a whole other story. She's been asking ridiculous questions and conniving, trying to manipulate us and the company to suit her needs. I know her background and how she's a backstabber and a liar, but two can play at her game. As it stands, I'm sort of an inside man, S sees me as a person to confide in, but my loyalties lie with my superiors. We're cutting her hours, writing her up, and trying as hard as we can to catch her whenever she slips up so we have a legitimate reason to fire her. Unfortunately with no Manager and the assistant leaving on vacation for two weeks, if we need to fire her soon, I might have to be the one to do it. Ugh.
There was more I wanted to write, but now I don't remember what there was, so I'll leave it at this.
I'll try to blog more often, I'm sure I left a lot out.